Shit. Shit, shit, shit! Trapped outside his form against the wall of Mementos, by his stupid nature and his own endless rage, the Shadow twitches, and tenses, and tries to think.
He didn't mean to swallow Ren. Not yet, at least. Not like the smaller Shadows that misadventure close to him, tiny distractions from the bleak eternity of his days. If only he would have been worth it all—if only I hadn't been such a goddamned fool all along—
No wonder he spends so much time screaming. Ren's apology doesn't help, either. He can't catch his breath, for he has none, but there's a shudder in the walls of the bubble as Ren chooses to stay. His mind, what's left of it, whites out. stay, stay with me, oh stay—part of him wants it more than anything. But the rest of him is louder by far. He won't be stupid any more. He won't be trapped, and he certainly won't trust.
Rejecting it—rejecting Ren—he screams, "No! Never!", not making much sense but shaking all of Da'at. He needs to move, to thrash, but he can't, not in this monstrous form.
So he snaps back to his human shape and size, where he contorts in agony on the floor. Of Ren Amamiya and his mask, there is no sign. And when the Shadow understands this, he begins to wail.
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He didn't mean to swallow Ren. Not yet, at least. Not like the smaller Shadows that misadventure close to him, tiny distractions from the bleak eternity of his days. If only he would have been worth it all—if only I hadn't been such a goddamned fool all along—
No wonder he spends so much time screaming. Ren's apology doesn't help, either. He can't catch his breath, for he has none, but there's a shudder in the walls of the bubble as Ren chooses to stay. His mind, what's left of it, whites out. stay, stay with me, oh stay—part of him wants it more than anything. But the rest of him is louder by far. He won't be stupid any more. He won't be trapped, and he certainly won't trust.
Rejecting it—rejecting Ren—he screams, "No! Never!", not making much sense but shaking all of Da'at. He needs to move, to thrash, but he can't, not in this monstrous form.
So he snaps back to his human shape and size, where he contorts in agony on the floor. Of Ren Amamiya and his mask, there is no sign. And when the Shadow understands this, he begins to wail.